Welcome to my first podcast episode. I am going to be sharing my story, my journey. It’s definitely been a long journey. It hasn’t always been easy, but I have made it this far. I have literally started this spiritual journey, probably from the time of birth. I was always seeing things, feeling things, sensing things and I had no idea what to make sense of. I didn’t understand it. It was scary. I just felt alone. I didn’t feel like anybody understood what I was going through and it wasn’t easy. You can ask my parents and my sister, I literally lived in fear for probably the first 16, 17 years of my life. Even up until like a year ago, it still really scared me; seeing things, feeling things, I would hear voices in my head. I would feel energy. I would see somebody standing in front of my bed. So, it was not the most comfortable thing to experience, especially when you don’t understand what’s going on. So, definitely so many different things happened from the time…...like I said, when I was a baby my Mom said I would wake up around the same time every night and I would point to the corner of my room and I would be screaming at the top of my lungs and she was like, “I knew that was not just you crying cause you were hungry or needed your diaper changed.” I was pointing, I was staring and I was like screeching. So, I’m guessing I was probably seeing things back then. And then it really just progressed as I got older. I would see my grandfather and I didn’t know who he was because I had never met him but when I explained it to my dad, he put the pieces together. I saw my dog floating over me one day when I was playing basketball with my sister and I was very dramatic. I would freak out and tell my mom I was never going outside again and usually, it was funny, because being outside was my safe place. It seemed like everything used to happen inside of my house but then things did progress outside, so I don’t know why that happened but yeah, I was afraid. I would sit with my parents because I was terrified. It scared me and I didn’t understand it.
One day, I was put in contact with a mentor and that really did change a ton for me. It really changed my perspective on why I was seeing things. I was living in fear and not to say that this immediately changed everything because it didn’t. It still took years upon years to really stand in my power to really see like, “Oh wow, this isn’t really as scary as I am making it out to be.” So, she would sit with me for hours on end, multiple times a year, and I would just ask her questions. I would ask her questions about different things I was seeing, about energy, about how to listen to these messages, how do I channel these messages. I would learn about healing. I would learn about mediumship. I learned about really anything I could think of. She taught me how to draw auras. So, it was a really amazing experience. And she also taught me how to really stand in my truth, boundaries, all of that, which is really important, we will probably get to in a later episode. That happened when I was about 12-years-old. I would see her multiple times a year and we would sit and talk for usually an hour. I would go to some of her classes that she was doing and really nobody knew about this, my parent’s obviously. Other than that, I was very in the closet about it. I was playing premiere soccer, so this was five days a week and then the other two days I was going to a personal trainer, so I was very preoccupied. I was very busy. I was trying to do my best to stay distracted because if I was busy, I wasn’t as able to tune into this energy because I wasn’t paying attention to it. But there was still a part of me that was interested in it. My soul was like craving it. I was like, “this is so cool.” But then the other part of me, I would see something, and I would think, “this is too much for me, I am over this, I’m done. Don’t show me anything like this again ever again.” Like I said, I was very dramatic. But it always interested me and I was always reading books and then I remember when the Long Island Medium came out, that was really powerful for me because I finally was like, “Oh wow there is somebody else out there like me.” I was probably like 13. Like I said, I felt alone. I didn’t know anybody who was going through these things. And now I find out so much of my family is intuitive, feels things, senses things. We’re all intuitive, that’s the thing. I just feel some of us come into the earth turned on and opened and others come in kind of closed off where the lights are a little dimmer. Whether it is past life experiences. Whether it’s just part of your journey to either awaken up to it….whatever it might be. There are so many different reasons. But yeah, down the road, literally this past year. I found out that so much of my family, especially on my dad’s side, are super intuitive people. Most of them live in Italy though, so I don’t know if I will ever meet them. Maybe someday. That would be cool.
So, yeah. I would kind of just read books at home. I would kind of test my boundaries. Even though I knew I didn’t want to see anything. There would be days where I was like, “Alright. I’m ready.” And then I would see things and I would close it off. Don’t ever show me yourself again,” and freak out. This was like a recurring cycle for years probably. Pretty much my whole high school. There were individuals who would pass away and would come to me and I didn’t understand it. It was scary. They would show me how they passed and it was just really hard for me to make sense of it all and I would just be like, “why me? Why is this happening today? I don’t want this.” But then it really did take me going to college to start to stand in my power and start to see, “Oh wait, this isn’t something as scary as I make it out to be.” Because like I said, even though I was interested in it there was always a piece of me that I knew down the road that this would be my career. At the same time, it was terrifying and I didn’t know how I would ever even sleep in a dorm room with a roommate because I was so afraid of being away from my parents and being away from our house. There were so many obstacles that I was facing and dealing with internally because it was so hard for me to tell people. I had told a few of my friends and my boyfriend and luckily for me they were super into all of this and really understanding. And so many things happened that they really had no choice but to believe it, even if they didn’t believe it at first. Because things that had happened were just too real to doubt that. So, that’s kind of how it started. Also, with more background people were always going to me for help. People always wanted to vent to me. People were always asking me questions and I was just always good at naturally giving them advice and now I see because it probably wasn’t coming from me. I was probably channeling these things. But at the time I didn’t know how I knew that. It was just coming through me and it helped you. So, there you go. And that is still something that always happens. People are always coming to me. And I love to help. That's really why I’ve gone more of the coaching route. I love to guide people and I use my intuition in that area tremendously but it’s like I am able to do it in a little bit of a different way.
So, now going off of that, I really started to embrace this going into college. So, when I went to college I started meditating. But this was an important time for me because I had before this, the story could go on and on. There is so much to it….but before this I had four knee surgeries and I was like on the path to play division one soccer. I was told, I think at the age 13-14, yeah that was still young, but my coach would tell me, “If you stay on the track that you are on, you will be on the Olympic team someday. You will be playing in the World Cup.” They would tell me that. These coaches were players who also played Division One. They also played on those higher levels. So, that was a big deal. They weren’t just saying that because. So, soccer really was my whole life. Like, I lived and breathed soccer. You can ask my family. You can ask my boyfriend. Literally, from the spring on, it was every weekend. I was traveling. We were going somewhere. And if I wasn’t traveling, I was playing soccer in the backyard. I was running. I was working out. So having four knee surgeries, it was like as dramatic as it sounds….to a high-schooler, my life really felt like it was falling apart. This was my identity. This is all I have known since I was four or five-years old. And now it’s being ripped away from me and I have no choice. And that was not easy. And still, even today actually, I went to my massage therapist and I went for a massage and then a float tank and I was still releasing anger from back then, five years ago, however long ago it was. So, it hasn’t been easy. It’s still a journey of me releasing that and even though I see, “yes, it happened for a reason,” it still can be hard. Hard to understand. Hard to handle. And then when you think you are healed, something else comes up.
So, going into college was not easy for me because I felt like I had no identity. I felt like my identity was ripped away. I was always an athlete and I was struggling so hard to even find myself. But this was also the biggest moment in my life. Because I had the choice. I had the choice to continue saying, “Poor me. This didn’t work out. The one thing I cared about more than anything.The thing I put my heart and soul into didn’t work out and was ripped away from me. I didn’t have a choice. It wasn’t fair.” I had that option. And I played that role for a little while. Probably for about six months. I had gained weight. I was miserable. I wasn’t eating right and it was hard. But then going to college, the change of environment, I think really helped. But then I was still struggling internally for a few months. More so then after that.
I started to heal after meditation. I had never meditated before even though I was familiar with it. It had just never occurred to me that I should try meditating. So, I started doing that and that’s when things really started to change for me. That’s when doors started to open for me. Like, realizing, “Oh wait. I have a gift and this isn’t as scary as I had been making it out to be over the last 18-years of my life.” So, that was huge for me because I started seeing things. I had all these really really cool experiences that I will get into in later episodes. But for right now knowing it’s all of these things aligning for me. And things were happening that were so clear. There was no way that I could deny it. There was no way I could say, “No, that didn’t really happen.” Because I would say that. I would be like, “Oh no. I’m making that up,” or, “That was just a coincidence.” Well then something else would happen. The universe was speaking to me. The universe was telling me, “Wake up. Wake up,” over and over and over again. And this was a good year long journey of really waking up and opening up.
So, I started to meditate and I started to see things. I would have dreams afterwards and then I would tell somebody. Because it started with loved ones. Because at the time, I was like, “Oh mediumship is cool,” like, “I see Theresa Caputo on TV and “Monica the Medium”. I was like, “This is cool. This is really what I want to do.” So, that’s really how I started. Because see, this is the thing. When you get your mind to this is what I’m gonna do and there’s no stopping me, it’s going to happen. It’s just, you have to actually believe in it. So, that’s what I did. I was like, “This is what I’m gonna do. I am going to help people. I am going to help my friends. I am going to help my family. And so be it.” So, I started learning and I started reading tons of books on mediumship, as well as meditating and all of that stuff and practicing on friends and I just wanted some guidance. So, it’s funny. Like I said, I was extremely dramatic, but I wanted guidance and my mentor wasn’t a medium. And that’s what she told me. She was like, “Well, I can only help you with so much. To a certain extent when pertaining to mediumship.” So, she guided me to find somebody, like a medium to talk to. So, I had two occurrences that were not the greatest. It really caused a lot of turmoil within me. So, first, I was put in contact with this really really well known medium, I won’t say names, but I was so excited. I was like, “YES! I just want to ask questions about all this stuff. I don’t care about listening to loved ones because I already did that all the time anyway. So, like that’s not what I’m going for.” I just wanted help. So, anyways, this was a phone call and it was scheduled for, I think, 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I had finals the next day that I should have been studying for but I was like, “Well it’s only 30-minutes. Like it’s fine. I’ll do it afterwards.” Well, I sat in my dorm room for four hours and finally I called them and was like, “uh, I am pretty sure I was supposed to have a session today and so, they finally called - whoever the receptionist or whoever had answered, this medium finally called me back and at this point it was almost 7:30, almost 8 o’clock at night. I hadn’t studied for my final. I was very annoyed because he sounded annoyed on the phone and I was like, “This was supposed to be like my final moment. That moment where everything just like clicked,” but it really wasn’t. And he went on and on about different things telling me I was going to be a veterinarian and all these things. And I was like, “I don’t want to know these things. I’m somebody who I don’t really want to know my future. Other than guidance wise. I don’t like the whole, like me personally, I don’t like having tarot card readings. I don’t like to have that stuff.” I just like to have guidance on this could happen type of thing because I believe we have free will, so nothing is set in stone. So, anyways, yeah, he tried telling me I was going to be a veterinarian and he told me all of these other things and me and my roommate were just looking at each other like this does not make sense. It doesn’t align at all and I love dogs, but honestly like birds, I am terrified of birds for some reason. Cats I’m not really a huge fan of because I have been clawed and scratched, so they are not usually my favorite. So, I was like, “This doesn’t even make sense. I don’t want to be a veterinarian. At the time I wanted to be a doctor or a PA or something. So, that was really disappointing. At the end he was like, “Do you have any questions?” And I was like, “Well, the only question I have is pertaining to this stuff. I have been experiencing all of these things. I have been seeing things and hearing things. I have been delivering messages to people and they have been accurate.” And he immediately goes, “No. That’s not in your future. You are not psychic at all,” and then he pretty much said goodbye. And that moment was like, my stomach just dropped. And even though I knew he wasn’t like accurate, because I had known I had been talking to people’s loved ones and they have been confirming those things were correct and I had seen things and like I said, there were so many synchronicities, there was no way it wasn’t true. There was no way that I wasn’t intuitive. And anyways, every single person on this earth is. So, the fact that he would even say that to me, I feel is very out of line. But, that’s a whole other story. So, I was like, “What the heck?” I was like, I’m trying to do this guys for you, god, team, or whoever I was working with, my spirit guides. I was pissed. I was like, I’m trying to take steps out of my comfort zone for you guys and this is what you guys are doing to me. So, I was like immediately putting the blame on them.
And then I came home and my mom set me up with somebody else, and I should have never gone because immediately my stomach sunk. It was kind of like a reading where one person goes in and then the next person goes in, and it was in a shop. It wasn’t probably something I would ever recommend doing unless I knew the person and knew that they were very good and working from a place of love. But immediately I didn’t get good vibes about the space and then when I went in another woman was walking out, and I remember I thought in my head, “That’s weird, she didn’t even like clear the space. The cards from this other woman were still on the table.” It was so weird. And once again, it turned into her trying to talk down on me. Because she asked me what I wanted to talk about, and immediately it was, “Well most people your age want to learn about who they are going to marry and what their job is gonna be.” And I was like, “Honestly, I don’t want to know those things. I don’t really care to know those things.” And I said, “I believe in free will.” And she was like, “Well we’re gonna do it anyway.” I was like 19, I think. And now I would be like, “Well I’m leaving.” But back then I was like, “Oh, okay.” And I just sat there and I knew I shouldn’t. My gut was telling me, “NO no no. You need to go now.” But, I was like, “Oh no, I don’t want to be mean,” and all of that. So, once again, I stayed and it was not great. It was her telling me I was gonna be broke and it was gonna ruin a relationship, and she went on to say I had a relationship when I was a teenager that ended due to substance abuse, and I was like, “No, I’ve only been in one relationship my whole life and we’re still together.” And she was just like feeding me fear like non-stop. And once again, I was like, “Well, I want to know how to embrace my gifts,” and she first shot it down and was contradicting herself. She first started telling me that that’s not in my cards, but then she kept saying, “Well you’re psychic, you would know. You’re psychic you would know.” Like holding it over my head and just being really rude about it when all I really wanted was help. So, after that, I was so angry with my team because, like I said, I was blaming them. I was like, “How dare you. Like I put my trust in you guys. And I needed help. And I was trying to better myself to help you god and help this world and this happens.” So, I literally went on strike from my team for a good three months. I didn’t talk, ‘cause everyday I was meditating. So, I didn’t meditate, nothing. I was like, “I’m done. I don’t want to listen to you guys any more. You guys are telling me lies. This isn’t what I’m supposed to be doing because clearly none of this is working out!” I was so angry, but you have to remember, it took me 18-years just to finally accept this and then as soon as I did, all of these horrible people started coming into my life and what I thought at the time. So, it was really hard for me because I knew I was supposed to do this and I knew I was gonna help a lot of people, but at the same time, I was like, “Well why does all this stuff keep happening?” But, probably around August, this was April, so August came and I was like, “Alright, I’m over my little pity party, I guess I will start meditating again.” Because like I said, I felt such a pull with all of this stuff and I was like, “I can’t stay away from it even though I’m very frustrated right now.”
So, I started again, meditating and all of that and things started to get really clear for me. So, I started working on intuition. I would literally envision a knob, like a radio dial and I was like, “Okay, by the time this thing turns the whole away around, I’m going to be able to hear things clearly. I’m going to have clear channel and all of that stuff.” So, that took me a long time. It probably took me two or three months for it to fully go to the other side, but once it fully did, I could hear. It was crazy. I think I always could, but I think by setting that intention, that’s really what opened it. Like I said, when you set your mind to something, it’s gonna happen. It’s just a matter of time and I think that was my timing. I was like, “When it gets all the way around, that’s when I’ll be able to hear fully.” That’s what I was telling my mind and my subconscious, and that’s what happened. So, after that, I really got thrown into everything. I was at Boston University. I was in my statistics class. I was pre-med and like I said, I was always pre-med. In previous videos and stories that I’ve shared, that’s what I always wanted to be since the time that I was little. And, one day I was sitting in statistics class and all of a sudden, I got such a strong gut feeling and I’m sure you guys have gotten this as well, because we all do. It’s our inner-guidance system, and this gut feeling was so strong this time, that I couldn’t even sit in class any more. I had to leave. I was like, “I can’t sit here.” I was like, my feet were tapping on the ground. I was like, “I need to go, I can’t handle this.” And that message was, “You need to switch your major to education.” And I had never thought of that before. And I still think today, that was just the way to get me out of Boston. But, yeah, I was like, “Okay.” It was such a strong feeling that I couldn’t not listen to. My whole body was telling me, this is what you need to do. So, I went to my guidance counselor and I switched and that was a surprise to everybody. That also taught me a lot of lessons because people were, my parents were very supportive of me, but a lot of people were very rude about that. They were like, “You w a doctor. Why would you go to be a teacher?” They were looking down on me for switching my degree. They were like, “You’re never gonna find a job. You’re not gonna make the money you would have been making.” And were just really negative and really heavy. So, that also helped me see things from a different perspective. How society’s standards are placed upon us and I just didn’t think that was right at all. So, this was October. I couldn’t switch my classes because it was too late. So, I had to stick out the Organic Chemistry and all of that stuff. So, I stuck it out, but when my dad came to pick me up for winter break, he started to talk to me, “You know if you want to be a teacher in New York, you need a New York degree because the teacher requirements here are just so much better,” and all that stuff. So, I was like, “Okay…..I don’t really want to transfer. That’s too much work.” And I really liked being in Boston. So, I was like, “I don’t know.” But then, once again, it was on my birthday, so it was the day after Christmas - my dad, my uncle, my boyfriend, we were all at my birthday dinner and they were all, “Yeah, you should come back to New York and go to St. Rose.” Which is a really good teaching school in New York. I was like, “Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.” My gut was like, “Yeah, you oughta do it.” People tell me that I make spur of the moment decisions and this is why, because when my gut tells me something, I’m like let’s go! And it’s always proven to work. So, if you have those gut feelings, act on it now because if not, you’re gonna start overthinking it and be like, “Oh this doesn’t make sense. The logical side of this doesn’t make sense. Then I have to transfer and that’s so much work,” or whatever it is. So, just go with it right away. So, I was like, “Okay, that’s it.” So, the next day I called and then I found out that they weren’t going to be open until after New Year’s.
So, sure enough, the first day they opened back up, I went in and right then and there, I got accepted and I was like, “Alright, that’s it. I’m going to St. Rose.” That was the start of it all because my cousin, on Christmas, also told me, “Oh by the way, my friend is going to be contacting you for a reading.” And I was like, “Oh gosh, no. That’s not happening.” But she was like, “That’s okay. She knows you. She’s heard all about your story and all of that stuff.” And I was like, “Oh god. I’m not sure about this. I’m not ready for this. I don’t know her. Everybody else I have done readings for, I was comfortable with.” So, I was like, “Uh.” But she was like, “No, you’re doing it.” I was like, “I don’t know, but I’ll say yes to you.”
So, her friend texted me. We set up a day. I set up a day reluctantly because I did not want to. I was terrified. But, that day came and even my, like when I woke up, I was like, “Hm, maybe I should say I am sick because I don’t think I want to do this.” I was afraid and what if nothing happens and I make a fool of myself. That was the common theme within the last few years. What if I’m not right. What if I’m not hearing things right. So, we’ll go into that a little bit more.
So, I texted her that day and I was like, “Oh, my aunt was wondering if you would like to go to her house and then we’ll all have dinner afterwards.” And then she told me that it was gonna be her whole family for this reading. And meanwhile, I had never done a reading for anyone except for people I knew. So, I was like, “Oh my god.” I was freaking out. And literally I was terrified. I was like, “Okay, I’m gonna cancel now. I can’t do this. This is terrifying.” But, I did it. I went in and I was very blessed to have them. I really feel like that was so divine because I was so blessed. I walked in and I was like, “I’m just being very honest with you guys. I don’t think anything is gonna come through. I have no idea. I have not done this before.” And they were like, “Well, we haven’t done this before either, so if nothing comes through, that is totally fine.” So, I was like, “Okay.” I was still so nervous. I’m sure my face was so white because I was just like….
So, I think I stayed there for almost three hours because so much information was coming through. It was nonstop. It was coming and coming. I was like, “Oh my god, this stuff is actually right.” So, that was cool, but that proved to me that yes, I could channel. I could help people. I saw the healing that it brought to them, so it was a really beautiful thing. There was something in me that was, “You need to keep doing this.” So, once again, spur of the moment, and it was through my cousin’s guidance, but I was like, “I’m gonna do it, whatever.” I made a business page on Facebook. I made a website and I started telling everybody. And I had only done two professional readings. I was like, “Whatever. I can do this, so let’s go.”
So, that’s the thing, you just gotta act on things. If you feel called to do things and it feels in alignment, you just have to do it. It doesn’t matter if you have 50 certifications. What matters is that it’s coming from your heart and that you are helping people. That’s the important part. So, it just really started from there. So, I was still in school. I started doing readings on the weekend. That’s when I started to learn that I was very good at manifesting things. I didn’t know what manifestation was back that. Once I started realizing, “Wow the things that I am thinking are starting to happen.” That’s when I started talking to my mentor about it and that’s when she told me what manifestation was. Looking back on my life, I was like, “Oh wow, no wonder everything I ever wanted happened.” I mean, I prayed every night. I was so connected. I just trusted. I don’t know. I don’t know why it happened. I think there are certain people who, I don’t know, it can come more easily, I don’t know. I wasn’t aware of what I was doing.
So, yeah, I started building my business from doing things on the weekend. All of a sudden summer came and I had way more freedom and all of a sudden I was booked every single day. I was like, “Oh shoot, how am I gonna go back to school.” And at that point too, I was like, “I don’t want to be a doctor. I don’t want to be a teacher. I want to be a speaker. I want to motivate people. I want to help and inspire people. And I want to help people believe in themselves.” So, I was like, “What major falls under that. And I was like, “Maybe communications.” I was like, “Uh, I have no idea.” I decided I was going to take the semester off. I was like, “Well, why waste money and time.” So, I took the semester off, but I think I decided that in June, so I still had a few months to figure things out. So, I was like, “It would be really cool if I had more like holistic school or spiritual school,” and I think I had thought it, but I had never told anybody. And then one day on my Instagram, you know how Facebook and Instagram works, when you search for things, things show up. Well, I hadn’t done any of that. I was like, “What if this happened or what if that happened,” type of thing. And sure enough, there was an ad for a holistic school in Arizona, and sure enough, once again, I was like, “I’m gonna do it.” I didn’t really think much of it. And, so that’s important though, don’t always just take spur of the moment decisions. If it feels aligned to you, and you will know the difference between, “Oh, I’m just gonna do this,” or, “My whole body and energy field is telling me this is the next step.” There is a difference and your whole body is moved by it. So, I’m not guiding you to just go out and do anything randomly, no. The things that feel so aligned with you, that you know you just have to and you just can’t explain it. That’s what I’m talking about. So, I started with this schooling stuff there and I started learning about coaching and neuro-linguistic programming and hypnotherapy and it was all so amazing. And through that, I was able to get a life coaching certification and I’m not NLP certified, but I don’t really think that matters. It’s just like another coaching tool for the mind. I am a certified clinical hypnotherapist through that too, which I don’t do very much with that, but I do meditations, which I think has helped me tremendously with that. But, I started working with angels during that time too and I started working and ready for more clients. I was ready for this and ready for that, and they always came. And that is something so powerful for all of you listening right now. I know some of you on and listening are coaches or you own your own business or you have patients, you can literally manifest your dream client. You can manifest your dream business. All I would do is open up my calendar, put my hands on my calendar and I would say, “Thank you universe for filling all of my appointment slots this week and this month.” And I would feel how amazing it would feel to have these things and it always came. And that is something that was so powerful for me because I realized then and there, “Oh,if I want another client, just ask the universe and ask meaning, “Thank you universe for bringing me my soulmate clients.” And you always want to say soulmate clients. And that’s gonna be a whole other podcast episode, but soulmate clients essentially are the clients that are in alignment with you, that want to better themselves, that you want to be working with, all that stuff. Because I have had clients that definitely are not in alignment with me and it doesn’t do you any good and it doesn’t do them any good. They have their soulmate coaches or whatever and you have your soulmate clients, so keep that in mind. Not everyone is going to be a right fit for you. You are not here to help everyone. You are here to help your soul group, that you came here to serve.
So, yeah - that’s really where it started. And as I started taking on these classes and I was learning and I was listening to podcasts and I was reading and I was following all these people that were inspiring. I started to realize…...Okay, I liked mediumship, I really did. I saw all the healing it brought to a lot of people, but I also knew it wasn’t for me, and this was something that a lot of people couldn’t understand, so once again this was something I had to work through. I knew it didn’t feel right anymore and I knew it was not fulfilling me. ‘Cause let me tell you, mediumship, bless anybody who does it because it is hard and it is stressful. It is so stressful. I remember I would get so nervous before every client because I was like, “Oh my god, what if nothing comes through? What if I’m saying things and they just don’t understand, and it doesn’t make any sense to them?” It was for me, even though I trusted, like this was like a whole new level because people come in with expectations and I would to. So, you don’t want to disappoint them. So, it was very stressful. Especially with some people because not everybody shows reactions and not everybody is gonna confirm everything, so you are talking to them and you have to have a straight face and you’re like, “Is anything I’m saying make sense to you right now?” And surprisingly, those were actually the people who brought me the most clients afterwards, but at the time I would think during the session, “Like, oh my god, does that make sense?” Or - like whatever. So, it was very hard for me and I knew moving forward it ended up making me sick doing it because I wasn’t supposed to do it. That was what forced me out of it because I knew if I had continued I wouldn’t have been fulfilled in the ways that I would be doing what I am doing now.
So, keep that in mind, just because people want something from you, doesn’t mean it’s for you. I just started referring clients to one of my amazing friends who actually mentored me in mediumship. So, that’s important to keep in mind. If it doesn’t feel right for you any more, don’t keep doing it. Don’t make yourself miserable by doing something, just to make everybody else happy. Or just to make money. It’s not worth it. It’s just going to drain your energy and you’re here to have fun and live in your purpose. If it doesn’t make you excited, it’s not your purpose. Maybe it was for some time, but as we grow and evolve, you outgrow things and that’s okay.
So, I started outgrowing the mediumship. At that point I had grown the mediumship following and I was so thankful for that. I am so thankful for all of my clients. I am so thankful for the universe for supporting me because I never advertised. It was word of mouth. This isn’t me bragging. This is me telling you, this can happen for you. I didn’t advertise at all. And like now, yeah, I see like in order to grow as a business, you do need to advertise, you do need to reach out to people and all of that stuff. But at the time, I didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t even know what business was. I kind of winged it. I just trusted my intuition and like trusted the guidance and I grew a business where I was booking out like a month at a time in less than a year, it was like six months. So, that was really cool and I’m telling you that because you can do the same thing. It’s not hard. I’m not just like a special person. We’re all like this. We can all do this. It’s just whether you stand behind it and believe in yourself. So, that’s really where I have progressed to. I have now reformed my business into a spiritual business and lifestyle coaching business. I still offer my intuitive sessions, however, I really do believe the growth comes from continuing to better yourself. And that was my thing with mediumship. I felt like a lot of people. And like I said, that’s not a bad thing. It’s just how I felt from from what I had seen. So many of my clients would say, “Oh, I have been to this person and I’ve been to this person” and it’s almost as if they were just trying to find a quick fix and not in all cases, but that’s kind of what I had observed. I was like, “I really want to be working with people who are ready to share their message. Who are ready to open up a whole new level to their intuition and all that stuff. So, that’s how I really started to shape my new business or kind of like expand it upon my business. So, now, I am coaching. I am leading meditations. I have an online membership. I have my VIP Coaching clients. There are so many different tiers. I really worked to make this an online database so that all of you can access it whenever you want. Whether, you just want the free stuff on YouTube, this podcast - all that stuff. Or you want to take the next steps and have the membership or you want to work with me 1:1. It’s up to you. And that’s why I made this, so you can do what you want. Because this is your life. And always remember that. This is your life. You will only be in this body one time. Therefore, you need to do what feels right to you. Nobody else- no one else’s opinion matters, but what feels right to you. Yes, it’s always good to receive guidance from other people, but in the end, you always know what’s right for you, and through this journey that’s what I have found. I have found that if I just sit for a second and meditate or whatever it might be, I always know the answer. And even if I do still ask people for their advice, my gut is telling me like, “You know you’re not excited about that,” or, you know you’re gonna do that either way, whether they tell you yes or no. So, you always know that. So, just go for it. Take those chances. Those are some of the biggest things I have learned throughout this journey, to just keep on trusting that guidance. Keep on trusting those gut feelings. The more you can align yourself with the highest powers of love, the better things are gonna get, the happier you’re gonna be, the healthier you’re gonna be. Everything is going to start to flow. Because we are meant to live the best lives. Life is supposed to be easy. We are the ones who make it difficult. So, always remember that. If you are following your gut feelings. If you are working on strengthening your connection to love and you’re not getting caught up in fear and in the, “What if this happens. I’m not good enough. I don’t have enough clients. Or no one is gonna want to see me. Who is gonna want to hear from me. I don’t have the degree in this.” It doesn’t matter. If you were called to do it, do it. The client's will come. The money will come. The happiness, all of that. Wouldn’t you rather be doing something that lights you up then sitting in a job that makes you miserable and that you dread going to every day? This is your life. You have that choice and you have that power. So, this essentially is what this podcast is going to be about. It’s going to be about sharing stories from my experience, channeling in those messages from a higher power. We’re going to go into tips and tools and all that really great stuff. So, if that sounds amazing to you, I would love for you to follow on and continue with me. But if not, that’s also amazing. We always have the people that match with us. And that’s what life is all about, finding those people that you resonate with and that make you feel more confident, and happy and excited to step into that life beyond your dreams. So, I’m going to leave you with that today. But I just thank you guys for listening and I look forward to our next episode.